The Weekend Came and Went

Here I am...enjoying my Sunday with my daughter. 

Don't Settle

OMG, so I had to come back and post this video by china brooks of Futuresobright.org.  It came right on time and like I said earlier I was feeling good despite my other feeling...this just came and lifted me to a new level!  Thank you China!

Day something

Hi there. Sorta in some kind of space, but also in a good mood despite what could be a hiccup! I am the creator of my life and feelings and with that knowledge I have the choice to change what is. Not only change it, but also to not let somethings affect me negatively that probably would have in the past. My recovery time is quicker!!!
No complaining is a lil challenging at times, but that too is a mind set...remember 10 Golden Minutes...i'll have to "change that story". No complaining is not challenging, no complaining is not challenging!

Ok, i'm feeling really good though...so thats wonderful. Anyway, I'm not really counting the days...just going day to day...moment to moment.

God PLEASE grant me the serenity,
to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference!!

So this is where i am today....

who knows what day it is....i'm starting over!

Good day! I'm trying so dang hard not to complain!  Sheesh, you dont realize how much you complain until you do this.  So i'm going to start over today.  Right now i'm going to focus on not complaining.  Wish me luck!

the other thing i have been doing, but not so consistently (i forget) is that i've been changing my story.  so in other words, the 10 golden minutes.   I change what i say from time to time.  Sometimes i say: "I am a photographer", or this morning was a hodgepodge: "I am beautiful, ilove my thighs, i am a photographer, i am loved, i am loving"  you get the picture, right?  i did it a few mornings and during the night and i fell asleep one night.  it was almost like a meditation.  I think I am creating a more loving, conscious Sweetpea and I'm pretty excited.  As you may know we manifest what we focus our thoughts on and I dont know about you, but i'm trying to manifest love, harmony, prosperity, freedom, peace, more love, more and more love! : ) Lots of good yummy stuff, oh and did i say i wanna manifest some love?

Now you tell me, what one thing will you do differently today?  Wanna share?

Blessings to you all...Sweetpea

Honesty

Good morning!  i'm restarting today no complaining.  Yesterday I didnt do so well.  A girl in my class started complaining about our instructor.  Instead of excusing myself I CONSCIOUSLY joined in!!!  Thats whats so bad about it, i knew i was doing the challenge and listened anyway and then agreed with her!  ugh!  Well, this morning on my drive into the office i said, "dont beat yourself up, today's a new day to start it again".  So here i am....Day One of No complaining and changing my story. 

Thats all for now!

Sweetpea Lilbutt

Another Day, Another Opportunity

Alrighty! Listening to some GREAT inspiration from China Brooks has caused me to take on something she's suggesting.  NO complaining /Changing my story.

This is some amazing stuff...ok, first off.  I have a phone call today with someone for an event planning opportunity and i'm knowing that I am right for this job.  I will make it happen and it will be a success!  I'm really excited and to be honest a lil nervous too.  Those dagon negative thoughts just hang around...like roaches!  ok, back to the good stuff....China mentions that if you dont complain it leads to the changing your story, for example: stop talking about what happened before that you didnt like.  The more you talk about it, the more you get the same thing.  Well, i for one do not want more of the past stuff i didnt like then either.  So i'm done...its over and i'm happier for it! 

No more gossip...whew, big one.  what i noticed when she was talking  is that (lets be honest here) me and my friends GOSSIP...probably no more than others, but we do.  i'm not doing it anymore...nope, i'm stopping...if someone starts up i'll just have to remove myself from the conversation. 

What does that leave?  Talking about what i do want...I want to travel!!  Domestically, Internationally...from down the street to across the ocean, and guess what dang it!  I'm going to be traveling!  You MARK MY WORDS! 

I want MORE $$$$.  Yup, I do!  I want freedom from a budget that someone else determines how much I make.  I'm going to manifest that, in fact, its happening now as we speak.  Right on! 

Also, my health and body...what?  they are in great shape and good condition!  yes sirree bob!  they are!  (ok, they're on the way there!)  I have lots of energy and i'm feeling BEAUTIFUL...alla me!  Evening loving these yummy thighs!! : )

i'll mention uno mas thing...LOVE...the best stuff in town!  i'm manifesting a beautiful love story that lasts and lasts and lasts...thats harmonius, peaceful, fun, sexy, all that good stuff...

So there you have it...you get the idea?  If not, ask ...

Its me...Sweetpea sending you loads and loads of love!

10 Golden Minutes

Here is  a great tool to use to build up changing thoughts and feelings we have about ourselves.  As you will see it can also manifest wonderful things for ourselves.  I'm going to start to implement this in my life...thanks China!



If you notice any changes or manifestations let me know, i'll do the same.

Sweetpea OUT! xxoxo

Updating Intentions (again)

Dear Creator &Spiritual Team, I ask that you provide my List of Intentions for my highest good:

Thank you for the opportunityof the entrepreneurial opportunity.

I'm so happy that it is not stressful, but fun, and i dont feel like its a 9 - 5 mentality, I am creating my own hours and destiny, i'm out and about, not stuck behind a desk and can charge an amount and feel good about it because i am worth it.

Thank you for the many growth opportunities you have provided. Continue to send me learning opportunites and i remain happy and grateful!


Thank you for each and every opportunity you provide to expand my loving, peaceful nature.  For the gift of teacher during those times that I teach and those times that I am taught.

Thank you for the gift of photography, and that it is bringing me abundance, financial relief and freedom!


For the gift of clarity and clear intuition. For the new friends i've recently met that help me on this path!

I create my to do list and am able to take care of those things.

That i am receiving money for all necessary expenditures.

Money flows easily to me.

I am able to remodel my home.

Thank you for the loving, supportive relationship that supports me in ALL areas of my life and is fully accepting of who I am.

I am able to attend any and all workshops, networking and coaching events without worrying about the cost.

I am able to provide the structure and discipline Jalen needs for these next 4 years in high school.

That love continues to surround me and my family.

I thank you and am grateful for the blessings that rain down upon us!!

Sweetpea Lilbutt

I'm BACK

after a week? i think, of being gone and feeling like crap (just down) i'm feeling back on top.  Not sure what was going on, but i havent been meditating.  Feeling a bit ashamed by it as well, but decided that it is what it is and i'm not going to beat myself up or stress over it.  All i know is i'm feeling better. 

i've got lots to do this weekend in terms of my photography and my goal is to shoot 4 rolls of film, maybe 5. 

Not too much more to say right now...BUT...I'm BACK!

Sweetpea Lilbutt signing out!

Coming along

So we're at day 8 and things are coming along.  Question though...how do you schedule your alone time when there are others in your house...for example: Meditation time, light candles, light sage, say my prayer, get comfy (sorta) on my pillows in front of my alter timer set...GO....here comes the dog..whining, tags jingling...ignore him diane...bark,bark, bark..oh dwaynes home from work...beep, beep, beep the alarm tone goes off, ignore diane...a few minutes later...mom...mom...mom...jalen looks in the meditation/office room..sees all is ok and goes to bed.

I just dont know...well I showed up, said my prayer before and after, said a few more prayers in my room, journaled and tried to read...started fallling asleep.  So there ya go!

I'm loving the journey! 

The other thing is that i really want to lose weight because i'm not feeling so great in my clothes.  How do you remain in the space of loving you when you feel uncomfortable and know you need to do something different?  I've been eating more veggies, and nuts...fruits too.  I just know i have to get off my booty too. 

God is talking to me through a variety of ways...I heard Daddy the other night in my dreams and that was pretty powerful!  Thanks Daddy for coming through! 

Anyway..sticking to my guns on this one...no distractions they are all just messages to help me stay where i say i wanna be.

Love you....Sweetpea Lilbutt

Meditation Day 14, Sugar Control Day 6 (Part 2 of 2)

So here's China Brooks talking about how she got out of her funk....and i'm so grateful for my buddy ND who discovered China Brooks blog...I think we can change the world with each person that does something similar...ok, back to my regularly scheduled program! Enjoy!

Day 7

Good morning!!  Hmmm, i'm feeling kinda speechless right about now. 

Last nights meditation was rather...Oh i dont know...I just didnt feel very uplifted or spiritual.  I had some things on my mind and they wouldnt go away.  Some resentment popped up probably because I saw something earlier in the day that reminded me of some old feelings I had.  It really made me mad. BUT....it is what it is, yes?  I did my meditation, prayed about it and did my best to release it. I'm in a much better place today, happy with my life and ready for each blessing that comes to me. 

thats all for now....

Sweetpea Lilbutt signing out....xooxxxooo

Day 5

Sorta taking the day off from the blog...meditated last night after my class...had a rough drive...but came home and sat in peace.  Learned alot of things that just confirmed i'm headed in the right direction.  Thank you Spirit for showing me that what i'm doing is in my highest good.  Grateful for the clarity and right vision!  I love you!

Happy Saturday...

Day 4

Here we are again.  I feel happy, loved, and ready for everything that is coming my way.  Sometimes I wonder if me tracking this meditation challenge that we are undertaking is too much, but then i think its me just putting myself into that negative space.  So onward and upward, yes? : )

Last night i again had my alter ready...lit my candles, earth, water, fire..and me...still 10 minutes and it seemed to go a lil longer than the last time, but not to worry because i showed up and thats what counts! 

I do believe that the more i continue this process the more I'm available for the great feelings that have shown up.  There are moments when i feel sad about a certain situation, but in those moments I remind myself that there is a reason things ended the way they did and I accept it. 

Here's where I am today:  God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference. 

Anyhoo, someone said to me recently, "Change is coming, you just better be sure you're ready for it."  Well, change....here i am and i'm ready!!!

Sweetpea Lilbutt signing out...

Repost (Sort of) of my List of Intentions

Going to repost this - and update as some of this has been provided:


Dear God &Spiritual Team, I ask that you provide my List of Intentions for my highest good:

Thank you for the opportunityof the entrepreneurial opportunity.
I'm so happy that it is not stressful, but fun, and i dont feel like its a 9 - 5 mentality, I am creating my own hours and destiny, i'm out and about and not stuck behind a desk and can charge an amount and feel good about it because i am worth it.

Thank you for the many growth opportunities you have provided.  Continue to send me learning opportunites and i remain happy and grateful!

Thank you for the gift of a loan modification which allowed me to buy my photography supplies.

Thank you for the gift of photography, and that it is bringing me abundance, financial relief and freedom!

Thank you for reinventing my blog that I know will touch many people and allow me to be a teacher to someone.  It helps me as well to learn so much so that they too will feel the joy and peace i know.

For the gift of clarity and clear intuition.  For the new friends i've recently met that help me on this path!

I create my to do list and am able to take care of those things.

That i am receiving money for all necessary expenditures.

Money flows easily to me.

I am able to remodel my home.

Thank you for the loving, supportive relationship that supports me in ALL areas of my life and is fully accepting of who I am.

I am able to attend any and all workshops, networking and coaching events without worrying about the cost.

I am able to provide the structure and discipline Jalen needs for these next 4 years in high school.

That love continues to surround me and my family.

I thank you and blessing rain down upon us!!

Sweetpea Lilbutt...OUT *wink*

Gregg Braden - The Science of Miracles (5/7)

So I watched this video on China Brooks blog and thought it was so inspiring on how to pray that I thought, "Why not share this?"  The more that people view this, the more we can change how we pray and in turn maybe make some great changes to this earth and our lives....Am I looking at it in too big of terms? I think not!  Good day loves!

Day 3

Good Morning! Here i am..back!  Nothing exciting to report.  Yes, i did meditate, but in my mind i've cheated.  Yesterday I had a Reiki Healing session and i had a very short meditation period prior to the start of the healing.  So....there it is...

The healing session was sort of another part of meditation.  It was very powerful in that I felt my body doing some very different things while she was chanting and doing the signs, and touching me.  I also feel some relief in my back where i had lots and lots of tension.  I tried to shoo away my skeptical self cuz it always shows up.  Boy can i always count on her to bring in some doubt (when i really dont want it).  But I asked and intended for clarity with the Reiki session.  I feel like i'm definitely on the right path, but there are moments when i question decisions i've made. 

Anyway...I'll meditate again tonight the way i did the other night.  I think i liked that much better.  ND, Jah...hows it going...

Think i'm going to see if i can get china brooks to follow me and chime in on our goings on...OH...I think starting next week i'm going to take a break from twitter/facebook.  YIKES...wish me luck!

Smooches

Sweetpea Lilbutt..signing out!

Day 2 - Meditation Challenge

GOOOOOD Mooorrrnning Lovlies!

Day 2 of the meditation challenge!  This time I did something different.  I went in my back room that has my computer and files in it, but it also has a lil alter space where i have candles and stone, a vision board, and my 72 Names of God...So I went outside and filled a ceramic bowl with some dirt, brought some water into the room, lit my candles, set my timer and there we go!  This time was much more peaceful.  I prayed, and payed attention to my breath.  I allowed whatever thoughts to come in to come and didnt judge them.  10 minutes passed in no time.  Once the timer went off I got on my knees and prayed someone.  Thanked God/Spirit/Universe/Holy one for all of my blessings (and there are many) and all of the beautiful angels in my life (Hi ND & Jah).  Wella!  It was great...felt like i was floating after that.  (I meant to light my sage prior to starting, but i forgot.  I'll do it tonight)  So that was my experience.

What i enjoyed about this experience is that even after that i was motivated to write in my journal and study/read my A Course in Miracles book.  I am totally in a new space around my spirituality.  One day at a time to a different way of being.  Not that there arent days that might be a lil rougher than others, but there is always something to smile about...

ND reports that things are going great for her and Jah is going to ramp up to an hour.  Sorta makes me feel like my lil 10 minutes is too lil, but I gotta do it my way and not judge myself, right?  So happy we're doing this together!  Love you Ladies!!!!

I had a nice dream too!  Happy Wednesday rain (ick) and all!!!

Day 1

Good Morning!  Day 1 of the meditation challenge went...well it went.  Ha!  So i did my meditation last night and was completely distracted by Jalen, Max and any other noise that could be heard.  10 minutes seemed like 20 minutes.  I think my first mistake was that i did it in the living room.  Although i thought it was safe because i was by my candles...NOPE!  I checked twice to see how long had it been, maybe i didnt actually turn my timer on, or did i do it right...it has to be past 10 minutes.  Opened eyes, a lil over 4 minutes to go.  Ok, close eyes, breathe, pay attention to my breath, focus on the middle of my forehead...sit tall....dear God how long has it been...it has to be longer than 4 minutes...dont check Diane, dont check, just be patient...I open my eyes and check 54 seconds left. 
So while i was a lil disappointed with myself for checking and being completely distracted, I chose to let it go.  Not beat myself up for all of those things because guess what - I sat there and meditated.  So I choose to focus on what i did.  Not what I didnt do.  For me it really goes hand in hand with staying away from negative thoughts, radio, tv, words etc.  Now i'm in the process of changing my life and i'm going to embrace every step of the way!!! No matter what!

Good day, God Bless, Peace and Harmony and most of all LOVE to you all!  Lets make it happen!!!

Sweetpea Lilbutt...signing out!

PS gonna check in with ND and Jah shortly!

Sisters in the Spirit

Happy Monday...feeling great!  My buddy ND emailed me this morning with a link for a 30 day meditation.  Did I want to participate?  Why, of course, my darling!  I need to get myself focused.  Also, doing a TV diet and going to really watch what i put into my body and make sure that im not filling my head and body and soul with lack, but with things and news of abundance and love.  I'll keep ya'll posted on our progress...we start tonight!!

List of Intentions

Dear God & Spiritual Team, I ask that you provide my List of Intentions for my highest good:

That my Travel and Event planning business starts to get on its way.
that it is not stressful, but fun, and i dont feel like its a job, my hours are flexible, i'm out and about and not stuck behind a desk and can charge an amount and feel good about it because i am worth it. 
I get started in my classes and can add photography to the list of things i offer.
Things become clearer and my intuition stronger.
I create my to do list and am able to take care of those things.
That i recieve the money for all necessary expenditures.
Money flows easily to me.
I am able to remodel my home.
I have a loving, supportive relationship that supports me in ALL areas of my life and is fully accepting of who I am.
I am able to attend any and all workshops, networking and coaching events without worrying about the cost.
I am able to provide the structure and discipline Jalen needs for these next 4 years in high school.
That love continues to surround me and my family.
That the loan modification goes through and my mortgage goes down $500.

Realize

You know sometimes it not that you no longer love the person you're with.  Sometimes its that you no longer can tolerate who you become when you're with that person.  Not that you dont love that person any longer, but that maybe you're compromising who you are to get approval from that person.  Sure we all want approval from outside sources.  I believe thats just human nature and it starts when we are kids, but honestly, the only approval I need is from myself.  What a freeing discovery and it comes at the ripe young age of 48. 

Shining my light

If you never look for the light you will never find the light...I am the light and I will continue to see the light, be the light and look for more light...

This is me..

Loving, funny, grouchy, naive, sensitive, silly, affectionate, a loner, cynical, openminded, lover of books, a mommy, a gramma, i am quiet and talkative, i am needy and spoiled, i want alone time and to be with others.  It all sounds contridictory, but it is all me and then some...and i love it all...

My friend

I read my friends blog today.  What a story of love, of hope, of despair, but mainly a story of love.  You know i've posted many blogs about broken heart and love, but really its not quite the same.  Sure, I love her, but this other type of love is so unselfish.  So not about me and so about just compassion, human spirit, human solidarity.  When i think about it thats whats missing from the world today.  Everyone is just out for themselves, but not my lil skittles. (LOL) Nope she is a lover of the world and probably most everyone.  Tonight reading her blog has shifted me in ways that i can't explain.  I know this much...while i've always known that everyone has a story and i've typically rarely judgemental of homeless people, from now on i will do my best when the opportunity presents itself to form a connection, to do something different...to be that human that wants solidarity with someone that is different from her.  To really be LOVE.

all wrong

i've been coming at this all wrong...i'm posting heartache, sadness, lack, scarcity...but there is so much more.  So much i'm grateful for...so much i am in love with.  My life, my children, my grandchildren....My family/friends.  Its really a beautiful life and i'm not taking it taking it for granted any longer.