Day 2 - Meditation Challenge

GOOOOOD Mooorrrnning Lovlies!

Day 2 of the meditation challenge!  This time I did something different.  I went in my back room that has my computer and files in it, but it also has a lil alter space where i have candles and stone, a vision board, and my 72 Names of God...So I went outside and filled a ceramic bowl with some dirt, brought some water into the room, lit my candles, set my timer and there we go!  This time was much more peaceful.  I prayed, and payed attention to my breath.  I allowed whatever thoughts to come in to come and didnt judge them.  10 minutes passed in no time.  Once the timer went off I got on my knees and prayed someone.  Thanked God/Spirit/Universe/Holy one for all of my blessings (and there are many) and all of the beautiful angels in my life (Hi ND & Jah).  Wella!  It was great...felt like i was floating after that.  (I meant to light my sage prior to starting, but i forgot.  I'll do it tonight)  So that was my experience.

What i enjoyed about this experience is that even after that i was motivated to write in my journal and study/read my A Course in Miracles book.  I am totally in a new space around my spirituality.  One day at a time to a different way of being.  Not that there arent days that might be a lil rougher than others, but there is always something to smile about...

ND reports that things are going great for her and Jah is going to ramp up to an hour.  Sorta makes me feel like my lil 10 minutes is too lil, but I gotta do it my way and not judge myself, right?  So happy we're doing this together!  Love you Ladies!!!!

I had a nice dream too!  Happy Wednesday rain (ick) and all!!!

Day 1

Good Morning!  Day 1 of the meditation challenge went...well it went.  Ha!  So i did my meditation last night and was completely distracted by Jalen, Max and any other noise that could be heard.  10 minutes seemed like 20 minutes.  I think my first mistake was that i did it in the living room.  Although i thought it was safe because i was by my candles...NOPE!  I checked twice to see how long had it been, maybe i didnt actually turn my timer on, or did i do it right...it has to be past 10 minutes.  Opened eyes, a lil over 4 minutes to go.  Ok, close eyes, breathe, pay attention to my breath, focus on the middle of my forehead...sit tall....dear God how long has it been...it has to be longer than 4 minutes...dont check Diane, dont check, just be patient...I open my eyes and check 54 seconds left. 
So while i was a lil disappointed with myself for checking and being completely distracted, I chose to let it go.  Not beat myself up for all of those things because guess what - I sat there and meditated.  So I choose to focus on what i did.  Not what I didnt do.  For me it really goes hand in hand with staying away from negative thoughts, radio, tv, words etc.  Now i'm in the process of changing my life and i'm going to embrace every step of the way!!! No matter what!

Good day, God Bless, Peace and Harmony and most of all LOVE to you all!  Lets make it happen!!!

Sweetpea Lilbutt...signing out!

PS gonna check in with ND and Jah shortly!

Sisters in the Spirit

Happy Monday...feeling great!  My buddy ND emailed me this morning with a link for a 30 day meditation.  Did I want to participate?  Why, of course, my darling!  I need to get myself focused.  Also, doing a TV diet and going to really watch what i put into my body and make sure that im not filling my head and body and soul with lack, but with things and news of abundance and love.  I'll keep ya'll posted on our progress...we start tonight!!

List of Intentions

Dear God & Spiritual Team, I ask that you provide my List of Intentions for my highest good:

That my Travel and Event planning business starts to get on its way.
that it is not stressful, but fun, and i dont feel like its a job, my hours are flexible, i'm out and about and not stuck behind a desk and can charge an amount and feel good about it because i am worth it. 
I get started in my classes and can add photography to the list of things i offer.
Things become clearer and my intuition stronger.
I create my to do list and am able to take care of those things.
That i recieve the money for all necessary expenditures.
Money flows easily to me.
I am able to remodel my home.
I have a loving, supportive relationship that supports me in ALL areas of my life and is fully accepting of who I am.
I am able to attend any and all workshops, networking and coaching events without worrying about the cost.
I am able to provide the structure and discipline Jalen needs for these next 4 years in high school.
That love continues to surround me and my family.
That the loan modification goes through and my mortgage goes down $500.

Realize

You know sometimes it not that you no longer love the person you're with.  Sometimes its that you no longer can tolerate who you become when you're with that person.  Not that you dont love that person any longer, but that maybe you're compromising who you are to get approval from that person.  Sure we all want approval from outside sources.  I believe thats just human nature and it starts when we are kids, but honestly, the only approval I need is from myself.  What a freeing discovery and it comes at the ripe young age of 48. 

Shining my light

If you never look for the light you will never find the light...I am the light and I will continue to see the light, be the light and look for more light...

This is me..

Loving, funny, grouchy, naive, sensitive, silly, affectionate, a loner, cynical, openminded, lover of books, a mommy, a gramma, i am quiet and talkative, i am needy and spoiled, i want alone time and to be with others.  It all sounds contridictory, but it is all me and then some...and i love it all...