Love....do you trust it?

"We may tell ourselves that love is not really available. but the deeper truth is that we don't entirely trust it, and therefore have a hard time fully opening to it or letting it all the way into us. This disconnects us from our own heart, exacerbating our sense of love's scarcity." - John Welwood

So i copied this to post on facebook really for someone else to read, yes i thought someone else could benefit.  But i changed my mind and decided not to post it because honestly maybe this was something I could or should or maybe was being shown because i needed it, and really who am i to say what someone else could benefit from?  I need to look at me and see where i can be better, more open, more loving, more patient, compassionate, forgiving...learn about loving boundaries...learn about me...So in that vein, how can i be more open to trust that its ok to let love in all the way...?  I learn to sit still and listen to that small voice inside..take note, read what comes my way and be the love that i want within...yes, i start with me first. xooxox

50's on the way

its been a while since i've been here...think i'm going to blog weekly or daily...i dont know, anyway, till my 50th birthday comes (which is july).  Feel like big changes are happening in my life.  Time to figure out who exactly i am, what i want, and how i create that life. 

1st - Make Spirit a priority in my life.  Make time to pray, be still, listen to what i'm feeling.  The universe is filled with messages, and instead of ignoring what i feel/hear...i'm going to pay attention.  Get out into nature, the breeze, my trees, plants and take every opportunity to make this relationship tops!

2nd change is my body - in the process of creating the body i've always wanted and never really consistently done anything to make it happen.  Now i'm doing it.  Boot Camp for about a month now and will continue to do that till July...

3rd change - Food/Nutrition (which i havent been so great at) i will do my very best to eat consistently and nourish my body with healthy foods.  I also will not deny when i crave something, but i also wont over do it.  A bite or two should be sufficient.

3rd - Make travel a priority...

4th - Stay focused on a financial goal. 

I think that's a great start...

The Weekend Came and Went

Here I am...enjoying my Sunday with my daughter. 

Don't Settle

OMG, so I had to come back and post this video by china brooks of Futuresobright.org.  It came right on time and like I said earlier I was feeling good despite my other feeling...this just came and lifted me to a new level!  Thank you China!

Day something

Hi there. Sorta in some kind of space, but also in a good mood despite what could be a hiccup! I am the creator of my life and feelings and with that knowledge I have the choice to change what is. Not only change it, but also to not let somethings affect me negatively that probably would have in the past. My recovery time is quicker!!!
No complaining is a lil challenging at times, but that too is a mind set...remember 10 Golden Minutes...i'll have to "change that story". No complaining is not challenging, no complaining is not challenging!

Ok, i'm feeling really good though...so thats wonderful. Anyway, I'm not really counting the days...just going day to day...moment to moment.

God PLEASE grant me the serenity,
to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference!!

So this is where i am today....

who knows what day it is....i'm starting over!

Good day! I'm trying so dang hard not to complain!  Sheesh, you dont realize how much you complain until you do this.  So i'm going to start over today.  Right now i'm going to focus on not complaining.  Wish me luck!

the other thing i have been doing, but not so consistently (i forget) is that i've been changing my story.  so in other words, the 10 golden minutes.   I change what i say from time to time.  Sometimes i say: "I am a photographer", or this morning was a hodgepodge: "I am beautiful, ilove my thighs, i am a photographer, i am loved, i am loving"  you get the picture, right?  i did it a few mornings and during the night and i fell asleep one night.  it was almost like a meditation.  I think I am creating a more loving, conscious Sweetpea and I'm pretty excited.  As you may know we manifest what we focus our thoughts on and I dont know about you, but i'm trying to manifest love, harmony, prosperity, freedom, peace, more love, more and more love! : ) Lots of good yummy stuff, oh and did i say i wanna manifest some love?

Now you tell me, what one thing will you do differently today?  Wanna share?

Blessings to you all...Sweetpea

Honesty

Good morning!  i'm restarting today no complaining.  Yesterday I didnt do so well.  A girl in my class started complaining about our instructor.  Instead of excusing myself I CONSCIOUSLY joined in!!!  Thats whats so bad about it, i knew i was doing the challenge and listened anyway and then agreed with her!  ugh!  Well, this morning on my drive into the office i said, "dont beat yourself up, today's a new day to start it again".  So here i am....Day One of No complaining and changing my story. 

Thats all for now!

Sweetpea Lilbutt