I'm BACK

after a week? i think, of being gone and feeling like crap (just down) i'm feeling back on top.  Not sure what was going on, but i havent been meditating.  Feeling a bit ashamed by it as well, but decided that it is what it is and i'm not going to beat myself up or stress over it.  All i know is i'm feeling better. 

i've got lots to do this weekend in terms of my photography and my goal is to shoot 4 rolls of film, maybe 5. 

Not too much more to say right now...BUT...I'm BACK!

Sweetpea Lilbutt signing out!

Coming along

So we're at day 8 and things are coming along.  Question though...how do you schedule your alone time when there are others in your house...for example: Meditation time, light candles, light sage, say my prayer, get comfy (sorta) on my pillows in front of my alter timer set...GO....here comes the dog..whining, tags jingling...ignore him diane...bark,bark, bark..oh dwaynes home from work...beep, beep, beep the alarm tone goes off, ignore diane...a few minutes later...mom...mom...mom...jalen looks in the meditation/office room..sees all is ok and goes to bed.

I just dont know...well I showed up, said my prayer before and after, said a few more prayers in my room, journaled and tried to read...started fallling asleep.  So there ya go!

I'm loving the journey! 

The other thing is that i really want to lose weight because i'm not feeling so great in my clothes.  How do you remain in the space of loving you when you feel uncomfortable and know you need to do something different?  I've been eating more veggies, and nuts...fruits too.  I just know i have to get off my booty too. 

God is talking to me through a variety of ways...I heard Daddy the other night in my dreams and that was pretty powerful!  Thanks Daddy for coming through! 

Anyway..sticking to my guns on this one...no distractions they are all just messages to help me stay where i say i wanna be.

Love you....Sweetpea Lilbutt

Meditation Day 14, Sugar Control Day 6 (Part 2 of 2)

So here's China Brooks talking about how she got out of her funk....and i'm so grateful for my buddy ND who discovered China Brooks blog...I think we can change the world with each person that does something similar...ok, back to my regularly scheduled program! Enjoy!

Day 7

Good morning!!  Hmmm, i'm feeling kinda speechless right about now. 

Last nights meditation was rather...Oh i dont know...I just didnt feel very uplifted or spiritual.  I had some things on my mind and they wouldnt go away.  Some resentment popped up probably because I saw something earlier in the day that reminded me of some old feelings I had.  It really made me mad. BUT....it is what it is, yes?  I did my meditation, prayed about it and did my best to release it. I'm in a much better place today, happy with my life and ready for each blessing that comes to me. 

thats all for now....

Sweetpea Lilbutt signing out....xooxxxooo

Day 5

Sorta taking the day off from the blog...meditated last night after my class...had a rough drive...but came home and sat in peace.  Learned alot of things that just confirmed i'm headed in the right direction.  Thank you Spirit for showing me that what i'm doing is in my highest good.  Grateful for the clarity and right vision!  I love you!

Happy Saturday...

Day 4

Here we are again.  I feel happy, loved, and ready for everything that is coming my way.  Sometimes I wonder if me tracking this meditation challenge that we are undertaking is too much, but then i think its me just putting myself into that negative space.  So onward and upward, yes? : )

Last night i again had my alter ready...lit my candles, earth, water, fire..and me...still 10 minutes and it seemed to go a lil longer than the last time, but not to worry because i showed up and thats what counts! 

I do believe that the more i continue this process the more I'm available for the great feelings that have shown up.  There are moments when i feel sad about a certain situation, but in those moments I remind myself that there is a reason things ended the way they did and I accept it. 

Here's where I am today:  God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference. 

Anyhoo, someone said to me recently, "Change is coming, you just better be sure you're ready for it."  Well, change....here i am and i'm ready!!!

Sweetpea Lilbutt signing out...

Repost (Sort of) of my List of Intentions

Going to repost this - and update as some of this has been provided:


Dear God &Spiritual Team, I ask that you provide my List of Intentions for my highest good:

Thank you for the opportunityof the entrepreneurial opportunity.
I'm so happy that it is not stressful, but fun, and i dont feel like its a 9 - 5 mentality, I am creating my own hours and destiny, i'm out and about and not stuck behind a desk and can charge an amount and feel good about it because i am worth it.

Thank you for the many growth opportunities you have provided.  Continue to send me learning opportunites and i remain happy and grateful!

Thank you for the gift of a loan modification which allowed me to buy my photography supplies.

Thank you for the gift of photography, and that it is bringing me abundance, financial relief and freedom!

Thank you for reinventing my blog that I know will touch many people and allow me to be a teacher to someone.  It helps me as well to learn so much so that they too will feel the joy and peace i know.

For the gift of clarity and clear intuition.  For the new friends i've recently met that help me on this path!

I create my to do list and am able to take care of those things.

That i am receiving money for all necessary expenditures.

Money flows easily to me.

I am able to remodel my home.

Thank you for the loving, supportive relationship that supports me in ALL areas of my life and is fully accepting of who I am.

I am able to attend any and all workshops, networking and coaching events without worrying about the cost.

I am able to provide the structure and discipline Jalen needs for these next 4 years in high school.

That love continues to surround me and my family.

I thank you and blessing rain down upon us!!

Sweetpea Lilbutt...OUT *wink*